Here is where I share, ponder, and reflect on "Life".
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Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Limbo and Accents!

Well I had a funny story from school but I forgot it because I was too lazy to write in my blog yesterday....drat! Today I realized I am stuck in a limbo. I went out to lunch with a group of teachers in the math department today. Good Thai food but extremely awkward situation! I think the main thing is the other teachers besides my cooperating teacher were not acknowledging my existence. The only time they talked to me was to give me their name when Ms. N introduced me at the beginning. The conversation consisted of talking about the test they just gave out today and about their current significant others. I would try to say something or ask a question, being the not shy person that I am, but someone kept over riding me and so my question or comment couldn't be heard. So as I was sitting there eating my good Thai food and observing these very "modern" (if someone recorded our lunch and gave it a rating it would have been R from their "colorful" language) teachers I had some good time to ponder on my situation. I decided I am stuck in a limbo being almost an adult but not quite there. I felt like I outgrew my University so I was ready to leave but I don't feel like I am ready for the next step and thus I have put myself in a limbo stage where I am trying to figure what the heck I am doing.


 I am not a fan of this because I am the kind of person that likes to have a plan and goals to accomplish. But I don't know what should come next. I know I am going to be a teacher, but where? People have asked me if I want to stay here and get a job. I have been saying that I am keeping that door open but that is just because I don't want to have any doors closed. I feel like I don't not want to teach here, but I don't want to either. Does that make sense? This is the point of where I wish that Heavenly Father would just tell where my path goes and I will follow whatever he would want me to do would be right and I would do it. But alas the Lord knows me well and knows that I need to learn through the struggle of deciding. I just don't like this limbo. But I made a sort of commitment today. Ms. N told me that in order to teach here in Nevada I have to take a certain class on Nevada Law and constitution and then pass a test on it. So I am going to look into it, I haven't committed to anything more than that.... but I will look into it!


Oh I remember the story now! I guess I just needed to get that off of my chest to clear my mind. Yesterday, I was asked to help these girls with their monologues they would do for their midterm exam and so we went into another room to do so. The first monologue was the overdone but good final monologue of Emily in "Our Town". I mainly just helped her to understand what was going on so she could make more solid decisions of how she was going to say things and how she was going to do her blocking. The second monologue though the girl was struggling with I think she said it was from the play "Warnings" I had never heard of it but the scene was a very dramatic one. Her husband just told her that he was going to quit his job. Her scene is an explosion of a southern temper, an outburst of emotion that has been stewing for a while. Well she wasn't letting it free she was holding it back so after trying many different things I showed her how I would do it. After my mini performance she just looked at me and then asked, "How long did it take for you to learn that accent?" The funny thing was I didn't even try to do an accent! I just laughed and told her that I am from Texas and it usually shows more when I am angry. She told me she wanted to do an accent and how she could learn to do it and I told her to watch "The Help". 


Ha ha so ya that was that! If you have any advice for me in my limbo stage be free to comment! Thanks! Come again!

Friday, January 13, 2012

Really kids? Really? You think I am that dumb?

Hahaha wow! So today my math kids were taking a test and my cooperating teacher left the room. As soon as she left I noticed this girl with HUMONGOUS hoop earrings looking at this boy and then looking at me really quickly over and over. So I decided to slyly watch her. It was easily done since she was sitting pretty much right in my view and behind her was the clock so I could just pretend to look at the clock. 


Well she tries the 'very discreet way of communicating' by putting a hand over her mouth (really did she really think that I wasn't going to see that!?) and the boy shakes his head and says I don't know. I shush them and give them the teacher look of death that says: "you talk again and your going to get a zero". So the girl starts making body language that meant "come on, help me out" and I am thinking "really after being caught?!" Because this girl was a very attractive big hoop wearing girl the boy rips a bit of his scratch paper and starts drawing a 'picture'. Now at this point he is really exaggerating the I am drawing a picture kind of thing and I am not sure if he is just weird or yet again thinking I am stupid and that he could trick me. So I decided to test my theory. 


I decided to look away and see if he does anything with his 'picture' and right when I turned my head I saw movement and so I turn back and he freaks out and drops it. I say out loud for him to pick it up and throw it away. He says can I finish drawing my picture (Seriously?!?) and I told him no and to throw it away. He does. 


2 minutes later I swear the girl was at it again and the boy now being caught just kept shaking his head no. BOOM, thats right! So moral of the story kids you are definitely not as sly as you think you are and your teachers (well most of them) are not stupid! Thank you! Come again!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Student teaching! Oy Vey!

So I have survived a full week of student teaching! My school is a VERY diverse school...and I love it! I am now student teaching for two teachers. We will call big D for theater and big N for math. They are almost completely opposite of each other and yet pretty similar too. D is this kooky 60 something year old theater teacher/performer/owner of community theater. She is tired of kids and has flat out told me that she hates them! Lol! But from observing her the last week I can tell she enjoys this job and is just sick of those punk kids who love to push her buttons! Which I think I can understand! Most students respect and sometimes fear her enough that they don't cause problems but there are those few who just drive her crazy! She teaches two acting and two tech classes and she told me that she wants me to teach the tech classes. I think I am going to teach sound design to the tech classes because she said they don't know anything about it and that is what I have the most experience in.

I am going to be teaching pre-algebra to freshmen with Ms. N. I just met her today so I don't have much to report but some of my theater kids told me that she is awesome and a really good teacher, in fact one kid said that she was her favorite teacher ever! So I am excited to work with her!

So funny thing of the day: one of the students said that she is going to use my name (Ms. Mutz) for a cat that she will have when she is old...I was like thaaanks???