"I Have Been Blessed With So Much More Than I Deserve!!!"

I am so incredibly content with life right now! I am just seriously happy and feeling this high from life. I have been so blessed and I really feel like I have not done anything to deserve this out pour of  blessings. What blessings could make me feel this natural high you ask? Well, let me tell you...first off what I have been working for, for 7 years, the last "test" to pass...I passed this week! The end of next week I will be done with student teaching, officially done with college and have my bachelors degree! Kind of a big deal, right? ;)

I was blessed with amazing cooperating teachers that taught me so much and not just about teaching. I became good friends with both and I am going to miss their guiding influence.

I was blessed with awesome roommates that were patient with me and how busy I was, who are great people that I could talk to for hours! ;)

I was blessed by getting an awesome job that I get to start a week after I get back home! I am going to be a nanny for an awesome family. I get to use my sign language and teach a child that has developmental problems and therefore can't communicate verbally what he wants to say, to use sign so he can communicate. All the while getting the benefits of a M-F/8-5 FT job getting 500 a week!

Last of all I was so blessed to meet some AMAZING kids while student teaching and working in the Silverado theater!

So therefore I shall close with lyrics from one of my favorite country artists:

I have been blessed 
And I feel like I've found my way 
I thank God for all I've been given 
At the end of everyday 
I have been blessed 
With so much more than I deserve 
To be here with the ones that love me 
To love them so much it hurts 
I have been blessed!!!!

The Deciding Moment!!!!

Well this is it! This week I will be judged by a group of people that can decide my fate and future, it is the deciding moment! On Tuesday I will bring my portfolio in and try to prove to these unknown people that I can in fact teach and help the future generations improve!

How do I feel about that? Honestly, I am not sure...I think more than anything I am relieved that this pressure will finally be done with! There is also some undermining fear and anxiety peeking in because if I fail this interview thing than I fail student teaching which is like failing all of college for me because being a teacher has been what I have been working up to. And then all those people who don't believe I can do it or think I can't accomplish it will be right. Man I hate those people! Unfortunately I have someone that is like that, that is very close to me. That is my biggest fear failing and then having this person rubbing it in my face! Uh I don't know if I can live with that.

But with the amount of time and energy I have put into this student teaching thing, I really feel I have done my best. If the way to pass was to just show all you have learned in an essay I am pretty sure mine would be longer than most. Because not only did I work in two different realms of education (math and theater) but I also helped direct, choreograph, discipline, design, build, paint, tech, stage managed, focus and patch. The list can go on and on! I worked from 7 am-5:00pm everyday with an hour of break when most student teachers were home by 3 or if they started an hour later 4. My cooperating teacher for math asked if I was required to do all I was doing in theater and I told her no and she said "then you are going over and above what you need to do and I hope they realize that!"  I hope so too!

Anywho enough of that! I am so excited for this all to be done! I am excited to go home finally for good! But I am definitely going to miss my kids especially the theater ones! This experience has really been awesome and just an amazing learning experience!

Just a bit of Nostalgia...

I am usually someone who makes anywhere I am at my home. My friends say I acclamate well...not sure what exactly is meant by that but lets go with it! But Sunday all of a sudden I got a case of homesickness not for Texas where my fam and friends are but for BYU-I!!! Sunday we had a fireside broadcasted from there and I had sort of had a flash of pics of really good times that I had there stream across my mind! I thought of all the awesome people who are still there and my amazing experiences I had there. I honestly miss that frozen place! Weird huh?

And then yesterday for FHE they did dancing instruction (very, very, very basic). My roommate looked at me and said "you really do love to dance" and "you seem really... high on life right now." Man I miss dancing! But most of all I just miss BYU-I!!!!

March...OMGoodness! It is March!!!

My last month of student teaching is here! Wow I feel like February was a REALLY short month! Tomorrow  my students have auditions for "Hairspray". Which I am excited to help with but it is another realization that my time here is almost up since I know I am not going to be here when they perform it. I feel like how I felt at the end of my mission. Mixed feelings of excitement and sorrow for leaving. Except I spent  a lot more time in my last area on my mission. It is amazing how attached and comfortable I can become in such a short amount of time! My worries now are to finish my portfolio so that I can prove to a panel that I should be a teacher. I have most of it finished and now I just need to make it organized and pretty! But after all this craziness I am moving back home and then...I seriously shudder when I think of the unknown abyss my future seems to be to me. I got to be an adult, get a good steady job, start paying for everything that I have been taking for granted that my parents have taken care of for me for so long, find an apartment! Oy! LIFE! "It's a crazy game!" Buzz says in Rebel without a Cause. I am beginning to see what he meant...lol. Anywho, I am just rambling now and I should probably get to bed. Tomorrow is going to be crazy because my coop teacher for math has to be out of the class all week helping others take their state test....therefore I will have all the students on my own...It is going to be interesting to say the least...I am sure I will have some stories to report to y'all! But for now I will leave you with that cliffhanger that is my life! Gnight!