The Deciding Moment!!!!

Well this is it! This week I will be judged by a group of people that can decide my fate and future, it is the deciding moment! On Tuesday I will bring my portfolio in and try to prove to these unknown people that I can in fact teach and help the future generations improve!

How do I feel about that? Honestly, I am not sure...I think more than anything I am relieved that this pressure will finally be done with! There is also some undermining fear and anxiety peeking in because if I fail this interview thing than I fail student teaching which is like failing all of college for me because being a teacher has been what I have been working up to. And then all those people who don't believe I can do it or think I can't accomplish it will be right. Man I hate those people! Unfortunately I have someone that is like that, that is very close to me. That is my biggest fear failing and then having this person rubbing it in my face! Uh I don't know if I can live with that.

But with the amount of time and energy I have put into this student teaching thing, I really feel I have done my best. If the way to pass was to just show all you have learned in an essay I am pretty sure mine would be longer than most. Because not only did I work in two different realms of education (math and theater) but I also helped direct, choreograph, discipline, design, build, paint, tech, stage managed, focus and patch. The list can go on and on! I worked from 7 am-5:00pm everyday with an hour of break when most student teachers were home by 3 or if they started an hour later 4. My cooperating teacher for math asked if I was required to do all I was doing in theater and I told her no and she said "then you are going over and above what you need to do and I hope they realize that!"  I hope so too!

Anywho enough of that! I am so excited for this all to be done! I am excited to go home finally for good! But I am definitely going to miss my kids especially the theater ones! This experience has really been awesome and just an amazing learning experience!