Hey so I don't usually use my blog as my spiritual journal but since that is probably something nicer to read then my vents, I thought why not. So today was a 5th Sunday and we had a combined meeting and we talked about the Temple. They said in the preparing for the temple book it talks about how your temple interview is looking at your patterns. Your physical and spiritual patterns. That hit me today because my patterns have not really been something I am proud of. I could go into all the excuses of how I have a new job that has become my life and I am exhausted when I come home and I don't want to do anything. But it is not healthy...physically or spiritually. I always tell my kids to not make excuses, make improvements. So that is what I intend to do.
First confession time my pattern for a normal day is my alarm going off at 5:30...5:45....6:00 and then usually getting out of bed at 6:15 and leaving the apartment at 6:35. School from then until 2:30 work on grading and prep or tutorials until 3:20. Rehearsal 3:30-5:30 get home around 6. Flop on the couch read some not meaningful fluff and eat some dinner or watch something on Netflix while grading my papers. Except on Mondays I have FHE. I could go to institute during the week but I don't. I haven't in a really long time and it has nothing to do with my testimony or activity in the church or even the people. It is more my laziness and my justifications such as "I graduated from BYU-I and therefore graduated from Institute." It keeps me from feeling guilty most of the time. But not today.
If I think of my weekly pattern I have Church, Work, FHE, Work, Work, Work, Work, Day off to get everything done and social time. That is not a good pattern for the week or day. So to improve my day I will add a personal study with meaningful scripture study and prayer...now the hard part is when...morning, lunch or evening. The smartest would be in the morning. I had a stake president at school that pretty much told us we must study in the morning to put on the armor of God each day to resist the daily temptations. At the time there were a lot of people who just thought how dare he tell me when I do MY personal study. But he does make a good point. So with that being said I am going to try...nay I shall do it in the morning. If I wake up at 5:45 and get dressed I should have about a half hour to study. And to help me actually wake up at 5:45 according to the sleep calculator I should be asleep by 10:15 or 11:45 pm. I am going to aim for the 10:15. Now to improve my week I am going to go to institute on Thursday. All the while I am going to prepare for General conference this weekend.
Yay! This feels good and I know if I pull it off it will make everything else including work easier and smoother or at the least I will be able to handle it better. I will keep you updated on how it goes.
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